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Thank you
What is this? A tiger mask?
Akari Suda, 24 years old
She never stops smiling
She never lets go of her smile
She has been following her ideal idol path
This is the first time she has spoken about her dream
My dream was to die after I was 30 years old
The glory she has gained as an idol
And the darkness hidden behind her smile
No.18, SKE48 Team E, Akari Suda
Akari Suda, 24 years old
She made a promise at the edge of despair
I lost my words
Akari Suda, 24 years old
She was suffering between two people
I think that the fans and everyone around me are like me
Akari Suda, 24 years old
They are her friends
I think she is the hardest worker in this group
She is a very weak girl
They are her family
She practiced shaking hands with me
I was the fan
She taught me how to shake hands
What should I do when I am 30 years old?
Do nothing?
If you don't do anything, you should not be here
It is better not to do anything
They have been doing a close interview for half a year
What is her true face?
Akari Suda, a road to becoming a Chinese idol
As an idol and as a human
Last January, she started a training program for Suda
Her hope is to convey her inner thoughts and true feelings
So the program prepared
Chinese
A close project to chase after her to pass the Chinese language qualification
I need money
May has started to move towards the Chinese language qualification
She is a Chinese teacher
One, two, roll, down
It is perfect
I am learning a new textbook
I can finally memorize the text
I am looking forward to it
She is always smiling and positive
But it is her first time to learn Chinese
It is not easy to learn Chinese during her work
What is on the picture?
A picture
No, it is not showing
It has been a month since she started
She is not able to see the results of the training program
She is getting late to the class
Do you want to learn?
I think it is better to learn than to be told
I will do my best
The staff members who were worried about her prepared something
It will be easier to study if you understand her ability
A past tense
She took the past tense test
Two, two, down
How was it?
I am sleepy
Any answer?
No
She is not feeling the crisis
The result is 64 points and she is not doing well
She is still learning
It has been 4 months since the test started
She is not in time
The staff members are worried about her
Do you have any ideas on how to make her serious?
I am motivated
I think it is fun
I don't know how she feels now
Do you think she is not motivated?
I think she is not motivated
Her smile disappeared from her face
Is this her true feelings?
What will happen?
She never gets tired
She is always positive
How was she born?
To know that, we followed her miracle
The first person we visited is the person who knows her best
Hello
Nice to meet you
This is her mother, Ms.Etsuko
She has many goods that can be called the history of her daughter's activities
Her family treasure
In 1991, she was born as the eldest daughter of a family of four
She has a personality that is connected to the present since her childhood
I don't like to lose
I became stronger
I was the type of person who did everything until I could do it
I don't like to be left behind by others
Her motivation was also shown in her ballet performance
There is a reaction of trying hard
And motivation is strong
I wanted to leave a good result
I participated in the competition and cried because of the bad result
I was happy with the result
At that time, she had a character that she was good at
I feel like I'm in my own world
I feel like I'm making my own family
She is a classmate from junior high school
She is the type of person who is not in the group I have met so far
She is a strange person
I think that is a compliment
I said thank you to her
I don't want to live the same way as others
I was like that since I was in the second grade of junior high school
Who is she?
How can she live the way she can only live for herself?
I don't like to be with others
I have to do something different from others
I was confused
I started to look at the different direction
She spent half of her teenage years in ballet
When she was looking for her future
She was born in Nagoya, Japan
She is an idol group, SKE48
She has a new challenge to the world of idols
She has moved her heart
I'm Akari Tsutoha, the third
I will sing a song of Otsuka Ai
She is overwhelming with the expression of ballet group
She showed her talent since she was a child
I felt like I was losing to the girls next to me
I wanted to be able to win
And
Akari Tsutoha, the third
She passed the test
I want to be a member who can make the audience smile and cheer up
I want to be a member who can go home after the performance
It was the start of the idol Akari Tsutoha
She became a researcher
She aimed to be on the stage of the theater performance as the under-staff of the regular members
The members saw her working hard to get the chance to be on the stage
I knew that I could open the door
I was the first to come out
I was doing it faster than the under-staff
I thought it was amazing
My classmate was chosen by Aozora Katoomoi
The only one who was chosen as a member of the previous group was Darce
It was unusual for two people to be selected as a single
It's amazing that I'm the next
I was frustrated and cried
I was frustrated and said that I was frustrated
I thought I wasn't a child who would be satisfied immediately
She was selected as a regular member in just four months
If you don't mind, please join us
Yuuki Rinrin, Akarin Rin, let's all be together
Akarin Rin
Thank you
I'm Akarin, Suda Akarin
Thank you
At the same time, her lessons became more strict
The reason why she spent that time together was
I was very frustrated
When I was a student of the third grade of S-KIN, I was scolded a lot
I was told to do it again
I was 13 years old and I thought it was hard
I saw Dasuka next to me and I was dancing while crying
I was crying but I was dancing
I thought there was such an adult
I thought I would cry in front of us
I was determined to show a posture that I would never stop practicing while crying
It's been seven years since we've been together
I've never seen her lose her hands
I can say this, but I think the hardest thing in this group is Dasuka
And the same member who graduated from the dance club is
Hello
Yukiko Kinoshita
I can't believe I can see her like that
She is hard-working and serious
She has the spirit to challenge anything
But she is actually a very weak girl
She has a lot of worries
She is the type who thinks about her mistakes
I don't want to show it because I hate to lose
I think there are members who know Akari who is weak
I don't want to show my weak side to the fans
I think it's because I'm serious about my idol activities
She wants to shine as a professional idol
But she is the only one who shines in a huge group
But she still tries hard to show her strength
And finally
She was chosen as the member of the group 9 months after her elementary school graduation
But she was always at the back of the group
In fact, she was always at the edge
It was inevitable that she would disappear
But she got a big weapon
It was not a song or a dance, it was innovative
I was disillusioned with the concept of a handshake
I didn't think that a handshake would be a weapon
At that time, I heard that she was fishing at a handshake
I heard it as a bad word
But now, I think that she changed the compliment to a compliment
She wraps the fans' hands with both hands
And she remembers each person's face and name
They talk about different topics
How did she get this style of fishing?
She was a classmate and went to a handshake party
I was wondering what she would do at a handshake party
When I asked her for the first time at a handshake party
She said she was cute, and I thanked her without denying it
If I said I didn't thank her, she would deny it
So I said I was cute, and she said she was cute
I understood
I heard that being humble means denying her
So I thought that was the answer I got
I gave her all positive answers
Kizaki has been watching how Suda treats her fans
When we were reading manga or chatting, I read letters to the fans
I wrote letters to the fans, and I got this from them
I've been doing that for a long time
I can't do that for 7 years
I'm doing that, so I really care about my fans more than anyone else
Suda has collected her feelings for her fans
I think I've done this much
How many letters are there?
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11
She's been writing letters to fans
When we asked her what she wrote
I wrote letters to fans
I read the letters the day before the handshake party
I think, will this person come today?
I read the letters thinking about that
Actually, it was her mother, Etsuko, who suggested this letter
There was another letter from her mother
I was the fan, and my daughter said, let's shake hands and show how to hold hands
She said, hold me a little harder, and be a little gentle
She asked me how about this, so that I could wrap it in both hands
I think that's the best way to hold hands
One day, Suda Akari was called the queen of the handshake party
No matter how long it took, she didn't smile and looked straight at each person
Is this your first time? This is a very cute heart
I'll come again
I'm rooting for you, thank you
I want to know more about you
I think it's best to be equal with the fans
The results of the handshake party began to appear in the election
SKE48
Team S
Suda Akari
36th place in the first ranking
26th place in the second ranking, and 29th place in the next year
And finally, in the fourth year, a steady effort will bear fruit
16th place
The final number of votes is
40,000
3252 votes
SKE48
Team K2
Suda Akari
For three and a half years, I've been in the very corner of the stage
Even in that position for three and a half years, there are people who find me
And they made me the center of your eyes
I was able to move forward like this
But there are people who are always with me
There are people who always support me
So I was able to reach this election together
Now there are elections for the next generation
I'm 21 years old, so I can't be elected to the next generation
Please don't laugh
I can't be elected, but if the next generation can't do it, I can be the person who can pull me out now
Wonderful
The members of the SKE48 finally won the election
And the next year
It was the best year I've ever had
I'm so happy
I don't want to think this is the best year
But I received such a wonderful present
I can't help but be grateful
I'm worried about how to spend this year
It was a year that I could only do it
But I have no regrets
I'm looking forward to how this year will turn out
I'm really scared
The SKE48 team is very careful
There was a cool voice that the previous year's election was a miracle
But this year, Akari Suda will reach even higher
The 10th place finalist 48182 votes SKE48 team E Akari Suda
Akari Suda's first election
I got 10th place
Thank you
The SKE48 team is very serious
There was a place where we had a handshake and performed
I had a chance to communicate with each person
I had eye contact with each person
I was able to do that
I'm glad I met you
I want to show you the limit of Akari Suda
The 10th place finalist 48182 votes SKE48 team E Akari Suda
The glorious stage has finally arrived
I think I can go further
The future was full of light
From the edge of the stage, the group number 3
The unit that featured themselves
But on the other hand, everything seemed to be going well
They were worried about something
I was wondering if I was good enough
I think I got too much from the fans
I'm not as attractive as everyone thinks
I don't know why they support me as such a good person
I don't think I'm a good person
Big evaluation and timid true self
They always stick to the idol with a smile
Even if the results don't come, I believe in myself and continue
I thought that continuing to do what I like would lead to the next
I've never been so loved in my life
I'm afraid to let go of the person I like now
I think too much about what I should do to make people like me
I lost my words
The way to keep the light on is to connect people you like
They believed in that and continued to protect the idol image they created
However
I think that the fans of Akari can't say that I'm not Akari
I thought it was a little cramped
But they said I didn't like Akari, who wasn't Akari
They said I hated myself, and that it was fun to be Akari
I created the SKE Akari
It's not normal, but it became a dance
It became popular because it was made as an idol
I don't think anyone knows what the real Akari is
I think the situation is still unknown
I was 30 years old
They said I would disappear when I quit being an idol
I thought I was so dependent on the SKE
But I don't think so
I think I don't have the value of my life without the SKE
She is a person who is worthless only as an idol
I couldn't imagine myself after 30 years old
I finally understood the reason why I couldn't imagine
I couldn't think about it after I became an idol
If she could end her life as an idol that everyone likes
But the era doesn't wait for her
The success that Suda created from the bad company was a success model for the juniors
When I saw the fans who supported me, I thought, if I quit this group, I wouldn't be in trouble
I thought, if I quit this group, I wouldn't be in trouble
I thought so
But I think that fans should notice that I am serious about it
She is not confident
Suda Akari, who is always smiling and should be positive, finally said something
She said something
And that day came
I'm looking forward to it
Of course, I'm very nervous and I'm afraid of the speech
I'm thinking what I should say
I'm thinking if I can convey it or not
I'm thinking about it many times
But I hope I can convey what I want to convey the most
I hope I can be called by the election
I'm looking forward to it
The general election gave her a chance and confidence every year
The general election doesn't betray me
She is the idol that everyone loves on the stage
Kuma-zaki Haruka
SKE is a big hit this year
Kamata Natsuki
Many of the juniors ranked in
But the number of them reached the highest in the past
Kimoto Kanon
As the number of members of SKE was increasing
The moment that suddenly came
Number 18
43,665 votes
SKE48 Team E
Suda Akari
The vote from the 10th place
I can't understand everything
I want to be on the stage but I can't
I can't be here anymore
I thought I had to stop
I thought I had to go
SKE48 Team E Suda Akari
To everyone who voted for me
And everyone who met me today
Thank you very much
I've been looking forward to today
In the last election
I was ranked in the 10th place
But
I couldn't keep up with the results
I couldn't be selected for the 16th place
So I'm sure you'll vote for me again today
I thought you'd be watching me wherever I am
I didn't work hard enough
I thought I could only do my best
But
But I want to see you smile
I didn't want to disappoint them.
I thought I could do better if I kept pushing myself.
I've been doing things one by one, but I forgot to enjoy it.
I knew that the most important thing in being an idol is to enjoy yourself.
But I couldn't do that, and I think that's why I'm not in the ranking.
I'll keep smiling as long as you're with me.
Thank you for your continued support.
I'm sorry.
It's okay.
I'm sorry.
It's okay.
Don't think about anything.
It's okay.
I'm sorry.
It's okay.
I was filming at first, but I didn't want to let them film me.
I don't want to say anything, but I think I'm more important than anyone else.
I don't want to blame the fans, but I'm sorry that I couldn't get into the final election.
I don't know why I said that.
I would have been convinced if I had a goal or if I had done something that made me lose the election.
But I did my best, and that's what happened.
I don't know what to do.
And in an interview with the program just after the election, she said this.
As a human, I hope to be an idol who can share many feelings with everyone.
A human, Akari Suda.
It's the real me she's been hiding all the time.
I think I'm addicted to it as an idol.
I think I'm doing something that will make the fans happy, but it's not connected to my future.
But I don't want to give it up because the fans are important.
I thought I should do what I was expected to do.
That's the limit.
She's at a limit to play the ideal as an idol.
It's not someone's fault, it's my fault.
I can't show myself properly.
It's time for her to fight for her true self.
Suda felt it.
Her 24th birthday was a day of fighting.
It was just the day of the handshake.
And she got a birthday present from her fans.
24th birthday present.
Thank you.
I'll do my best to make sure I can put my feelings into words.
I hope you'll be with me.
She made up her mind to fight for her true self.
I'm so happy to be able to say that we're together.
I didn't know that there were people who would smile in front of me.
I didn't know that until I joined SK.
I'm glad I'm here.
Take care and come back.
And at the next birthday party, she was blessed by her teammates and fans.
Suda made up her mind here.
I want to be in the final election next year.
I want to be in SK.
I want to aim for the top of my class next year.
I'm not good at anything.
I'll do my best to be with you.
And she made a wish from her fans.
I love you too.
No matter what she chooses to do, she always supports her.
The message from her fans gave her courage to keep going.
Hello.
She had to wait for the time limit until the exam.
How do you feel?
I'm so excited.
I'm counting.
I feel like I'm going to fail.
I have to do my best.
She studies hard every day to get back the delay.
And this day is the last lesson before the exam.
That's all.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
Thank you for your hard work.
Do you feel like you're going to pass?
60%.
It's important to be calm just before the exam.
Will her half-year of study be worth it?
The day of the exam.
Good morning.
How's your exam?
It's not a problem.
She's half worried.
She's stepping into the exam room.
She's trying to learn Chinese.
And then...
I'm going to hand out the exam questions.
The test of fate begins.
She spent half a year studying Chinese.
Will she be able to become a Chinese idol?
The exam is over.
I don't know this.
The teacher who was worried about Suda also came to do an self-check.
This is right.
This is wrong.
This is right.
This is a word.
This is a waste.
The result is three weeks later.
All she has to do is pray.
That night, her father and her father's meal.
They are still good friends.
But they don't talk about work at all.
Her father has a lot to ask her.
Cheers.
It's getting cold.
Do you like beer?
It's refreshing.
It's okay to drink soda.
What do you think?
It's okay.
Do you know what it means?
It's okay.
It's probably not okay.
60% of the exam is passable.
But there is no 60% chance.
If a miracle happens, there is a chance.
That's okay.
I heard that you usually do it for about a year.
You haven't done it for a year.
If you pass it, it's amazing.
That's rude to everyone.
What was I like when I was a kid?
I remember when I was in kindergarten.
I suddenly disappeared from the house.
I was going to the school, but I didn't.
I went somewhere and couldn't go.
What did you do?
I went to pick you up.
I crossed the national highway.
I came back and it was a big problem.
It wasn't dangerous at all.
I don't know.
I met a demon on the road.
I heard it was a big problem at home.
I disappeared somewhere.
I'm too protective.
That's right.
Are you looking at me?
Do you think so?
I'm not sure.
What if I say I'm not looking at you?
I don't think you're looking at me.
I think your mother is looking at you.
That's impossible.
What if I say I'm not looking at you?
I don't think you're looking at me.
I can't stop it.
Why are you looking at me?
I can't stop it.
I don't know.
I thought you were looking at me.
If you were cute, you might not have been looking at me.
I'm not really cute.
I don't know what you're talking about.
I'm having fun.
I had fun.
I'm not wearing shoes.
I was a little wrong last year.
last year?
I didn't go as I planned.
That's this year.
You're wrong about what you think.
That's right.
But I think I'll follow you as long as I work hard.
That's right.
I saw you on TV and magazines.
You're a character who likes you.
I like you.
Do you like me?
I don't like you.
I like you.
I said that to cheer you up.
Do you really like me?
I used to like you.
Has it changed recently?
I don't like you now.
I broke up with you.
I like you.
Your father is a narcissist.
I don't know what you mean.
I don't want to be a target.
I was raised because I thought you were a target.
I think it's completely different.
I'm praised by someone.
I've never been praised.
I like you because you can praise people.
I don't think that's the case.
I hate myself.
How do you like me?
I think you're cute.
I think I'm cute.
I don't like you.
That's why you can't do it.
I'm doing it.
I like you.
I'm trying to like you.
What are you now?
I'm happy now.
I'm happy.
Is that so?
I'm being loved by many people.
You're happy even if you hate yourself.
That's the reason.
I don't hate myself.
I like myself now.
I'm happy.
I think that's normal.
I'm living every day.
I think you'll change.
What?
I think you can think about it.
I don't think so.
I think so.
I'm happy.
What will you do after you finish your Chinese?
I'm thinking about taking an audition.
What?
I want to act.
You want to study acting.
What do you study for acting?
I'm doing dance and SKE.
I want to do musicals.
You can go to ballet.
I want to go to a theater.
You can only go to a theater.
I don't know.
I thought so.
Is that a story of the future?
I'm talking about the future.
The future is not so bright.
I don't know.
I can't guarantee.
You are 24 years old.
What will you be 5 years later?
I will be 30 years old.
You are 29 years old.
You can be 30 years old.
I don't know.
I don't think I'm 30 years old.
You said you were 29 years old.
Don't you remember?
I think I went to the theater.
You were a kid.
Do you know what I said?
What did you say?
I said I should die.
I said I would die.
Why?
I don't know.
I think I'm alive.
That's a waste.
What's good?
It's a waste.
There is nothing to die for.
Is there anything to live for?
I have to think.
Is there anything to live for?
I have to do something.
You don't have to do anything.
You can do it.
You can choose.
What do you do when you turn 30?
I don't do anything.
I don't want to do anything.
It's good to do nothing.
Why?
Who is affected?
I can't stay in the house forever.
You're not eating energy.
You said you would die at 29.
What will you do when you turn 30?
I don't know.
What can I do?
Think about it.
I'll think about it.
Suda showed a different expression from usual.
As an adult, her father gave her a life homework.
Suda's mother is a Chinese speaker.
The results of the Chinese language certification are finally announced.
I open the box.
What is this?
What?
Really?
I thought I could get it.
What is it?
I failed.
The results are unsuccessful.
The listening was in line with the passing criteria.
The results were regrettable.
I was given a project.
I'm sorry.
I thought it was a good place.
Suda is the hardest worker.
What does she think now?
I've never lost in Chinese.
I couldn't switch.
I've been switching to something.
I've lost everything.
I was a little out of it.
I don't think Suda is like this.
I think so.
I didn't think it was hard or not suitable.
I don't like it when it's not suitable.
If there's someone else who can do it, I think I can do it, too.
I don't want to think that way.
I can't say it.
I tried not to feel it.
I thought it was difficult.
I thought it would be harder to say.
I can't get it to believe me.
I'm not good at it or strong.
Everyone thinks I'm like me.
I try to say what I really feel.
But I get told that I'm not like Akari.
I don't know what it is.
I made it up.
I can't follow my own imagination.
It's a failure.
It's all a failure.
It's the first time she's spoken out.
She's the real Suda.
And Suda's challenge closed the curtain.
She showed us a lot of faces in a six-month-long close- up interview.
She tried to change little by little from the idol image she had made.
So on the last day of the interview, I asked her three questions.
I just started being an idol as a person.
I'm still a baby.
I think it's too early to graduate.
I'm not good at it.
I thought I'd be able to help everyone out even if I was weak.
I thought it was okay.
I got a little bit of an image of 31.
I don't know if I'm a good person, but I think I'm a good person.
I want to be in love.
I can't say this.
I want to be in love.
Her true feelings as a girl that she's never spoken out before.
Her family who supported her even when she was down.
Her friends.
And her fans.
Akari Suda's 2016 begins.