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I think I liked my song more than anyone else at that point.
That's because at that time I was more blind to my own songs.
I found more challenges now and I'm not just good at my song anymore.
I don't know if I'm used to what I wanted to be at that time
but I think I'm growing better and learning more about my song than I was at that time.
There were many times when I wasn't just singing with good feelings.
At that time, I couldn't believe it.
I thought, if I sang straight like this, my song would be the best.
But I was old and had a disability.
But that made me understand people's feelings.
I don't think it was only bad things.
There was a time when I was scared just by speaking out what I was scared of once.
It's not something that's in your consciousness.
It's not something you can do with your own consciousness.
Even now, I sometimes think, oh, it hasn't healed yet.
I sometimes feel pain before I actually do it.
So first of all, I'm going to take it away and speak out loud.
I've been at Morning Musume for 13 years now, and I feel like I should keep changing.
I think that I should keep changing while I'm here.
So now, I'm looking for a door that hasn't been opened yet.
I've been avoiding songs like leaving it to my emotions.
I've liked it since I was a kid, but when I was singing a sad song, I didn't like it before the singer cried.
I liked it when I saw a singer crying and getting sad.
Even when I was watching a play or a picture book, I was like, why is the actor crying first? I was such a child who didn't know well.
Maybe it's because of that preconception and fixed concept, I didn't sing the song that I put out my feelings first at all.
So I wanted to sing a song like an apple that is closer to a novel than a movie or picture book, or an apple in me.
But now, I can't sing my song, which is called, ‌this is my apple’, so I have to do it.
I thought it was like an explosive force that people have and I don't have.
It's very difficult and honestly, I don't know if I can do it while I'm at Morning Musume.
I hope I can open the door with a light heart with my interest and my weird obsession with opening the door with a light heart since I was a child.
After all, my graduation is already decided.
I'm really contradictory with what I said earlier, but I think I have to tell you that I was able to do it thanks to this.
Even if you think of what is really the core of Moniusz,
if you try to put it into words, it's too simple, so it's not conveyed,
I thought I had told you, but it was received in a completely different way.
Well, at the end, before I'm gone,
I want you to tell your juniors what you think you want them to have.
How to make that time worthwhile is the challenge of the remaining time I have now.
But I don't take a step back.
That's not like a morning girl in me.
I like people a lot, so I want to say something to people, but I don't take a step back.
I want everyone to think they can sing better than me, and I want my juniors to see me as a rival.
I want to be a strong opponent to myself who challenges it.
I hope I can take care of myself while telling and fighting.