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What's this? Tiger Mask?
Akari Suda, 24 years old.
She never stops smiling.
Nice to meet you!
Nice to meet you, too!
She has been walking her own path as an ideal idol.
This is what she said for the first time in her heart.
It was my dream to die when I was 30 years old.
The glory she grasped as an idol and the darkness hidden behind her smile.
18th place, SKE48 Team E, Akari Suda.
She made a promise in despair.
I couldn't say what I wanted to say.
Akari Suda, an idol, and Akari Suda, a human being.
She was suffering between the two of them.
What I'm positive about is that everyone around me and my fans think I'm like them.
Her friends who supported her.
I think she's the best dancer in this group.
She's really weak.
Her precious family.
She practiced shaking hands with me.
When I became a fan, she shook hands with me and taught me how to hold hands.
What do you do when you become a fan?
Do you train or do you do nothing?
That's right.
If you don't do anything, you shouldn't be here.
That's right. If you don't do anything, you shouldn't be here.
We interviewed her closely for half a year.
What did we see in her honest self?
Akari Suda, a road to becoming a well-known idol.
As an idol and as a human being.
Last January, in order to launch Suda's training plan on the show, a meeting with her started.
Her hope is a plan that conveys her inner self and true nature.
So the show prepared...
Chinese.
A close-knit plan to pursue her dream of passing the Chinese exam.
Yasubi Nishida
In May, she set out to pass the Chinese exam in half a year's time.
Yes, that's perfect.
I'm learning a new textbook today.
I can finally memorize the sentences. I'm looking forward to it.
Always smiling and positive, Suda.
But even after getting attention for the first time and taking classes during work, she doesn't seem to move forward.
What does "chose" mean?
"Cho's" "Cho's"
It's no good. It won't come up.
It's been a month since she started.
Even though she promised to revise and revise, she hasn't been able to see any results.
She's slowly falling behind in her classes.
Do you want to memorize it?
Well, I think it's better to do it than to be told.
- That's right. - But I'll still do it.
"Cho's" "Cho's"
The worried staff prepared something for her.
I think it will be easier for you to study if you can grasp your own abilities.
"Kakomon" "Kakomon"
She took one of the four exams she took for her entrance exam and passed the passing test with past questions of the fourth grade.
"How was it? Try it." "It makes me sleepy." "The atmosphere is sleepy." "What's your answer?" "No."
She doesn't feel the sense of crisis. The result is 64 points and the fourth grade is also borderline.
Four months until the exam. She can't make it at this pace.
She doesn't seem to be interested in studying, but what about the staff?
``How can I get Suda-san to take me seriously?'' ``Are you feeling like you don't know if you can be motivated?'' ``Hmm, I'm motivated.''
``I also think it's fun to do it.'' ``I don't know what it feels like at the moment.''
``Do you seem unmotivated?'' ``To be honest, you looked like you weren't.''
Her smile disappeared from her face, contrary to her positive words.
Is this her true intention?
Always positive, never weak.
How did idol Akari Tsuda be born?
In order to find out, we followed her miracles.
The first person we asked is someone who knows her the best.
"Hello." "Nice to meet you." "Please."
Her mother, Etsuko.
Many goods that can be called her fighting history are treasures of her family.
In 1991, Akari Suda was born as the eldest of four families.
She has had a certain personality that she has had since she was little.
I hate losing.
I've become stronger.
I've been doing it since I was in kindergarten, but I've been doing it even when I'm covered in blood and sweat until I can go back up.
After all, I really don't like people passing me what I'm good at.
Even ballet, which she started at the age of five, showed her strong will.
There is a talent in making efforts, and a strong will not to lose.
Sometimes I cried because of bad results, and sometimes I was happy because of great results.
At that time, Suda had a certain personality that the teacher had seen through.
It's like I'm in my own world, but I'm making it up in my own way.
I thought it was strange.
When asked about her motivation since middle school...
She was one of the most exciting girls I've met in my life.
Even if I say she's strange, I think it's a compliment.
When I say she's strange, she says "thank you".
She said she doesn't want to live like everyone else.
She's been like that since she was in 9th grade.
Who is she?
What is a life that only she can do?
I don't like being with people.
I have to do something different.
I was confused and started to look in a different direction.
She dedicated half of her teens to ballet.
As she searched for a future...
An idol group, SKE48, was born in her hometown of Nagoya.
Her new challenge to a special world of idols...
Moved her heart.
I'm No. 3, Suda Akari.
I'll be singing "Sakuranbo" by the Oscar winners.
[Ballet is a form of expression that expresses emotions and emotions are expressed in dance.]
Ballet is a form of expression that expresses emotions and emotions are expressed in dance.
Here, too, they have demonstrated their magical energy since they were young.
I felt like I was losing to the girls next to me.
I wanted to sing right away.
And...
No. 3, Akari Suda.
Yes!
She has passed.
I want to deliver smiles and cheer up to the audience.
I want to be a member who can go home after the performance.
It was the start of idol Akari Suda.
She became a researcher.
As a regular member, she aimed for the stage of the theater performance.
The members of the same generation saw her try not to miss this chance to go up on the stage.
I knew that this part would open up for me, and I remembered it pretty early.
Did I come out first? Was I earlier than August?
Anyway, I did "under" really early.
I thought it was amazing.
The same generation of girls chose each other with blue skies in mind.
We were the only ones who chose each other with blue skies in mind.
It was unusual for us to be chosen as a single and a double.
It was amazing that we were chosen after that.
But we were frustrated and cried a lot.
And we said we were frustrated a lot.
So I thought, "She's not someone who can be satisfied right away."
In just four months, she was selected as a member of the same generation.
Yes! If you don't mind, please join me!
Yuuki Rinrin, Akari Rinrin, everyone together!
Akari Rinrin!
Thank you!
I'm Akari Rin and I'm Akari Suda!
Akari! Akari!
Thank you!
But at the same time, daily lessons increased their strictness.
Kizaki Yuria spent her time with them.
I was scolded a lot by the 3rd generation members of S.K.
They scolded me a lot.
They told me to do it again.
While I was doing lessons over and over again,
I was a 13-year-old and I was patient.
I thought it was a big deal.
But when I looked next to me, I could see that they were dancing hard.
They were dancing.
They were dancing hard, but they were dancing.
At first, I thought they were adults, but they were crying a lot.
I thought they would cry in front of us.
But even though they were crying, they didn't stop practicing.
It was established.
It's been 7 years.
We've been together for a long time.
I've never seen them let go of their hands.
This is all I can say.
I think they are the members who are working the hardest in this group.
And the members who have graduated are...
Hello!
Kinoshita Yukiko.
I'm Yuko!
She looks like...
How can I say this?
She's a hard worker.
She's serious.
She's willing to challenge anything.
But she's actually very weak.
I'm the type of person who cares a lot about myself and thinks about my own failures.
I hate losing, so I don't want to show it.
I think there are members who know that kind of weak Akari,
but I definitely don't want to show my weak self in front of the fans.
I think it's because I'm serious about idol activities.
She wants to shine as a professional idol.
However, in a huge group, it's very difficult to bask in the light.
Even so, with the hate and effort she had in front of her, she eventually passed.
And finally...
Nine months after her promotion, she was chosen as a selection member.
However, her position was always in the back, always at the end.
At this rate, it is inevitable that she will eventually disappear.
In the meantime, she got a big weapon.
It wasn't singing or dancing, it was innovative.
The idea of a handshake was overturned.
I didn't think a handshake would be a weapon.
At that time, it sounded like a little bad words like "I'm fishing at a handshake meeting."
It's disgusting.
But now, I think Akari has written back to the members that they are good at fishing.
Wrapping the fans' hands in both hands.
And remembering each person's face and name.
Facing each other with different topics.
This style, which can be called either fishing or God's sun, how was it born?
I had a classmate who went to a handshake party.
"How do you do a handshake party?" "What do you do to make me happy?"
When I first heard it in front of the first handshake party, I was told, "You're cute."
"Don't deny it." "Thank you." "That's not the case."
If you say it, you will deny the person's child.
"You're cute." "Thank you." "Got it."
"Be humble." "Deny that person." I heard it for the first time.
"Oh, I see." "That's what I'm doing now." I think I'll give it back in a positive way.
Kizaki has always looked at how she faces her fans.
That's what I've been doing while everyone is reading manga or chatting while traveling.
I've been reading letters all the time, writing them on paper, and getting them from my fans.
I haven't been able to do that for seven years.
I'm just doing it like that, so I really care about my fans more than anyone else.
However, there is something that has gathered fans' feelings for each other.
Here you go.
It looks like there were this many.
How many pages are there?
One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine...
Huh? Ten! Eleven!
It's called "Das Note".
When you ask her about it, which she has been writing about for a long time...
It's a place where you can write down what you got at a handshake meeting or a letter you received.
I look back at this note while thinking about the day before the handshake meeting and wondering if this person would come today.
In fact, it was Etsuko's mother who proposed this note.
In addition, there was one more thing her mother gave her.
When I became a fan, my daughter said, "Let's shake hands and hold hands."
"Hold it a little harder," "Be a little gentle," "Wrap it in both hands," "How about this?"
I think it's the best thing to do when you hold hands like this.
Someday, Akari Suda will be called "the queen of handshakes."
No matter how long it takes, she doesn't hold back her smile and faces each and every one of them straight.
Is it true? By the way, this is a very cute heart.
I'll give it to you.
See you later!
I'm rooting for you. Thank you.
Not only "thank you," but "I'm rooting for you. Thank you."
Hey, what kind of person are you?
I want to know more about you.
I want to know as much as you know.
I think it's best to be equal with the fans.
The results of the handshake meeting begin to appear in the form of election campaigns.
Akari Suda.
For the first time in her career, she ranks 36th in the rankings.
The following year, she will be ranked 29th in the rankings.
And finally, in her fourth year, her persistent efforts will bear fruit.
In 16th place...
The total number of votes won is...
43,252 votes.
SKE48...
Team K-2...
Akari Suda!
For three and a half years, I've been in the corner of the stage.
For three and a half years, even in that position, there were people who found me and made me the center of everyone's eyes.
I was able to move forward like this.
But like this...
Because there are people who are with me...
Because there are people who always support me...
I was able to reach out to this selection that couldn't be reached alone.
Now, there is a next-generation selection, but...
I'm 21 years old, so I won't be chosen by the next generation...
Please don't laugh!
I won't be chosen, but...
If the next generation can't do it, shouldn't I be the one who is pulled now?
Wonderful!
The selected members who were finally obtained are...
Not only SKE...
AKB48 group has 16 members now.
And the following year...
It's been the best year I've ever had.
I don't want to think of it as a success, but...
I can't help but be grateful for such a wonderful gift.
I'm worried about how to spend it.
It's been a year I've only been able to do it emotionally, but I don't regret it.
I'm really looking forward to how this year will turn out.
No, it's really scary.
Some of the previous years' selections were miraculous, some of them were cheerful.
However, this year, Akari Suda will reach even higher.
First place, final score...
48,182 votes...
SKE48 TEAM E...
Akari Suda!
She became an idol she admired, but she was only given the edge of the stage.
Despite that, she continued to work hard for the past four years.
And last year, she won first place for the first time in 16 months.
Since then, her life has changed.
In SKE's single, she was able to stand in the first row.
In her unit song, she got a solo part.
On TV, she appeared on "Rimbo Kigaku" where she decides who will be queen for ten years.
She swore a solemn oath of silence, and gained a lot of viewers.
Last year, Cinderella Girl came in top ten this year.
We won't let you call it a miracle anymore! Congratulations!
Yes, congratulations!
She won 10th place!
There are handshakes, performances, and places where we can connect with each other and communicate and make eye contact with each other.
It's a moment when I'm glad I met you.
I'd like to show you the limits of idols and Akari's limitless limits in the future!
Yes, congratulations!
She won 48,000 votes and is the same 10th place as S.K.E. and Double Matsui.
They've finally arrived at the glorious stage!
If we've come this far, we might be able to go even further!
The future was full of light!
From the edge of the stage to the third place in the group!
The unit she wanted to feature in!
But while everything seemed to be going well, she had a lot of worries.
I've been wondering if it's okay for me.
I wonder if the fans have given me something too big.
I'm not as attractive as you think I am.
I don't know why you see me as such a good person and support me.
I think I'm...
I don't look like a good person.
A big evaluation and a cowardly true self.
Even in such a struggle, she has always been a smiling idol.
When I thought about what my fans like about me, I thought that continuing it would probably lead me to the next step.
I've never been liked that much in my life.
So I'm afraid of letting go of people who like me now.
So I'm thinking too much about how I can make them like me.
I couldn't say what I wanted to say.
What everyone wants to continue is...
How to connect people you like.
However...
I really think like this, but if I say it, the fans of Akari will think it's not Akari and can't say it, so when I saw it, I thought it was tight, but I said that I hate Akari, not Akari of idols, like I really hate myself.
I said that it's really fun to be in Akari of idol Akari Suda.
She has created Akari Suda of S.K.
I don't think anyone knows what kind of Akari Suda is.
I think it's a situation where you don't know what to do.
But for a long time ago, when I was 30 years old, I said that I would disappear when I quit being an idol.
So I wondered if I was that much dependent on S.K., but it's not like that.
Without S.K., I don't think I'm worth living.
She is a human being who is only worth being an idol.
I couldn't imagine myself after 30 years of age.
I didn't have confidence in living after 30 years of age, so I finally understood why I couldn't imagine.
I couldn't think about anything after becoming an idol, so before I knew it...
If you can end your life like an idol you like...
However, the times didn't wait for them.
The success that Suda achieved from the handshake meeting became a success model for her juniors.
When I see people who have been supporting me say other examples,
I think, "Oh, if I quit this group, that person won't have a problem."
I say "that person" and when I'm gone, I'm in such a trouble,
I think, "Oh, if I quit this group, that person won't have a problem."
So I think, "Oh, I'm heavy."
But I want my fans to realize that I'm doing it so seriously.
She can't be confident.
Suda Akari, who is always smiling and positive,
finally said something weak.
And that day has come.
I'm looking forward to it!
Of course, I'm really scared of speech.
I'm really nervous.
What should I say?
If I say it like this, will it be transmitted?
If I say it like this, will it not be transmitted?
It's neither this nor that.
I've written it on paper many times.
But I hope the things I want to convey the most will be transmitted.
I'm really looking forward to being selected and called.
Only general elections give me chances and confidence every year.
Only general elections do not betray me.
On stage, everyone will definitely love me.
Suda Akari!
She will continue to be an idol.
Haruka Kubazaki!
SKE became a big hit this year.
Natsuki Kamata!
Many junior members ranked first.
Madoka Umemoto!
That number has reached its highest in the past.
Canon Himoto!
As SKE members were selected one after another...
The moment suddenly came...
18th place...
43,665 votes...
SKE48 TEAM E...
Suda Akari!
SKE48 TEAM E...
I couldn't understand everything, but I thought I had to go out, but I couldn't move forward, and I couldn't be here anymore because I put myself on the stage.
I didn't want to quit, but I thought I had to quit. I thought I shouldn't go anymore.
SKE48 Team E's Akari Suda.
Thank you for voting for me, and thank you for everything you've done for me.
I've been looking forward to today for a long time.
In last year's election, I was ranked 10th.
But I haven't been able to continue protecting the results you've given me over the past year with my own strength.
And I'm no longer selected for the 16-member election.
So I'm sure you'll vote for me again today.
I was hoping you'd vote for me wherever I am.
But I didn't have enough effort.
All I could do was keep my head down.
I thought I was at my limit many times.
But...
I wanted to see you smile.
I didn't want you to be disappointed.
I thought I could do better if I kept pushing myself like this.
That's why I did everything I could.
But I guess I forgot how much fun it was.
The most important thing as an idol is to enjoy yourself first and foremost.
But I think I couldn't do that because I didn't make it this time.
As long as you're with me,
I'll change everything into a smile.
Please continue to support me.
Thank you very much.
It's okay, it's okay. You don't have to cry like that.
I can't.
You don't have to. You don't have to.
I told you to talk to me. It's okay.
I'm sorry.
It's okay.
I'm sorry.
It's okay.
It's okay, it's okay.
Don't worry about it.
It's okay, it's okay.
At first, the camera was rolling, but it was a situation where I couldn't really turn it around, so I have nothing to say.
But first of all, I really care about my fans more than anyone else.
I don't think I want to blame my fans.
But I guess I was really frustrated that I couldn't enter the general election any more than that.
I said I didn't know what to do.
If I had a goal or something like that, I think I would have been convinced if I had done this and lost the general election this time.
I did my best and it was that result, so I don't know what to do.
That's what I was saying.
And in an interview with a program held right after the election, she said this.
As a human Suda Akari, I would like to be an idol who can share a lot of feelings with you first of all because I am excited and enjoy it.
Human Suda Akari.
It's the real me she's been hiding all along.
As an idol, I may be addicted to it the more I try to do my best.
If I do this, I'm sure my fans will be happy.
Actually, what I'm thinking about isn't connected to my future.
But my fans are important to me, so I don't want to give up on that.
When I think about it, I have to say what I idealize and what I expect.
I thought about it, but I think that's where the limit came from.
There was a limit to playing the ideal as an idol.
It's not someone else's fault, it's my own fault.
I can't do it myself.
Suda felt that it was time for her to fight for herself.
It was her 24th birthday.
It was a handshake party.
I can't do it!
In the meantime, fans gave him a birthday present.
My goal for this year is to be able to speak my mind properly.
I'll do my best, so I'd appreciate it if you could face me firmly.
Once again, the fans made up their mind to face him with all their hearts.
I'm very happy and relieved to be able to speak my mind and be told "we're always together".
I didn't know that there are people who smile at me just because I'm here.
I think it's a place where people tell me that it's okay for me to be here.
And even at the birthday party the next day, his teammates and fans blessed him greatly.
At this place, Suda speaks of a determination.
I would like to participate in the general election next year.
I still want to be in SKE.
I want to aim for the highest ranking in me next time.
I think there are many parts that I can't do anything about,
but I will do my best so that you can follow me, so please support me.
And this support from his fans...
I love you!
No matter how she chooses to live her life, her fans will continue to support her.
The message from her fans gave her the courage to keep going.
The time limit until the exam was waiting for her, who had been going through an unprecedented trial.
Less than a month until the actual performance, classes are proceeding at a rapid pace.
You seem to be progressing at a great pace. How is it?
It's fast!
Today, one, two, three, four...
...five, six...
...seven, eight...
...nine, ten...
...eleven...
...twelve...
...thirteen...
I've progressed!
I feel like I can't go anywhere.
So I think I have to work hard.
In order to make up for this delay, she has been studying hard for several days.
And this day is her last lesson before the exam.
That's it for today.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
Thank you for your hard work.
Good luck!
Do you think you'll pass?
Sixty percent.
It's important whether you can stay calm just before the exam.
Will Sudano's six months of hard work pay off?
The day of the exam.
Good morning!
Half worried, she steps into the exam venue.
She desperately taps in the Chinese she learned just before the exam starts.
And...
I will now hand out the exam questions.
One by one.
Finally, the exam of fate begins!
For half a year, she challenged herself to speak Chinese.
Will her road to becoming a Chinese idol be open to her?
I'm sorry, teacher. Please put it down.
I don't know this.
The teacher, who was worried about Suda, also rushed in and decided to do a self-evaluation.
This is correct.
Jan is correct.
Li...
This is wrong.
That's right.
It's a word after all.
That's right.
A word.
What a waste.
The result came out three weeks later.
All that's left is to pray.
That night,
Suda and his father, who supported him in the shadows, ate alone.
Suda and his father are still close friends, but
Suda and his father don't talk about work at all.
Suda's father seems to have a lot of questions for his daughter.
Isn't it cold?
Cheers.
It's refreshing.
Do you like beer?
It's refreshing.
Isn't carbonated enough?
It's refreshing.
How was it?
A test?
Yes.
Not bad.
Not bad?
Not bad.
Do you know what "not bad" means?
No.
For you, "not bad" means...
"Not bad" means...
"Not bad" means "not bad".
For you, "not bad" means "not good", doesn't it?
I see.
It's about 60%.
It's barely 60%.
If a miracle happens, it happens.
I don't think it happens.
I heard that drums are usually played for about a year.
You haven't played for a year.
If you're happy about it, it's amazing.
I apologize to you all.
What was I like as a child?
I don't remember.
When I was in kindergarten or before I joined...
Before I joined?
Suddenly, I disappeared from the house.
I went back and forth, but I wasn't there.
Where did you go? You had a location.
What did you do?
I went to pick up my brother.
Oh, that's right.
I hit a small door and came back.
It was a big commotion.
But it wasn't dangerous at all.
I don't know about that.
I met a demon at a young age.
I heard there was a big commotion at home and disappeared somewhere.
You're too protective of me.
That's right.
Am I suitable for becoming an idol?
Do you think you're suitable for it?
No...
What if I say I'm not suitable for it?
I don't think you're suitable for it.
I think you're better off.
No...
If you say you're not suited for it, what will you do?
I don't think you're suitable for it.
Stop it?
I haven't stopped it yet.
Why aren't you suitable for it?
I can't stop it yet.
Why can't you stop it?
I don't know. I thought you were suitable for it.
If it was cute, it might not have been suitable for you.
You don't look cute at all.
How do you know that?
Even if you know it, I'm in trouble.
Didn't you have fun?
I had fun.
Shoes were good, too.
Last year was a little different.
Last year?
Well, the election didn't go as I thought it would.
That's because of this year.
It's a big mistake to think only about what you think.
That's true.
But you think you'll get as much as you work hard for.
That's a mistake!
Well, you're right.
You know, in TV shows and magazines,
there are characters who like themselves.
Yes, there are.
Do you like it?
No, I don't like it.
Do you like it?
No, I don't like it.
You like it, don't you?
No one says it's cute, so I thought I'd say it myself.
I said it at first to get you excited.
But you really like yourself, don't you?
I used to like it.
Did you change it recently?
I don't like it anymore.
I broke it.
What? Really?
Yes.
I like myself, you know.
But you're more of a narcissist.
I don't know what you mean.
And you don't like what you're aiming for.
I don't know what you're talking about.
I thought you didn't like what you were aiming for, so I grew up like that.
No, I don't think you're like that at all.
Someone praises me for being an idol,
but I've never been praised for my normal self.
I like being praised for my normal self,
but I don't think you're like that at all.
You don't like what you like.
How do you like it?
You think you're cute, don't you?
Me?
You think you're cute, don't you?
But you like yourself, so you can't do it.
That's why I can't do it.
You can't do it, but you're doing it.
That's why I'm somehow alive.
That's why you like it.
Isn't that right?
I'm trying hard to like it.
If you say it like that, what are you now?
I'm growing up.
If you say it like that, what are you now?
I'm happy, if you ask me.
Really?
Because I'm taken care of by many people.
Even if you don't like yourself, you're happy now.
Yes.
You're brave.
I'm brave.
I like myself now.
Happy or unhappy, it's normal.
That's how I think and live every day.
Will you change if you were me?
I think it's good to think about various things.
It's not like this, it's not like that.
That's right.
What will you do when you graduate from China?
But I think I'll take various auditions.
What?
I want to act.
Do you study acting?
Yes.
What do you do specifically for acting studies?
I'm doing dance at sk, so wouldn't it be nice if I could do a stage or musical?
You can make use of various things.
Like a play?
Various plays.
Isn't that the only place you can make use of yourself?
I don't know.
That's what I thought.
Are you talking about the future?
Yes, occasionally.
You're suddenly talking about the future.
No, the future isn't that bright.
You're not making it that bright.
I don't know.
I can't guarantee it.
You'll be 24 soon?
Yes.
What will you be like in five years?
30 years old?
29.
You can be 30 years old.
I don't know about 29.
I don't feel like I'm that old.
You said it before. You said you'd die at 29.
Don't you remember?
I think I did.
You said you'd die at 29.
Are you stupid?
Do you know what I said?
What did you say?
I said you should die.
Oh, and you said you'd die?
Yeah.
Why? Do you know what I mean?
No.
You're not that old.
But I think I'm older than you.
That's a waste of time.
What's good about it?
What is it?
It's a waste of time.
It's not like that. There's nothing if you die.
Yeah.
There's something you have to think about in life.
There's something you have to do.
You don't have to do it. You can do it.
You can make a choice.
What do you want to do when you're 30?
What do you do?
Do you do anything or do you do nothing?
Yeah, that's a choice, too.
If you don't do anything, I don't think you should be here.
No, that's not it.
There's a reason you don't do anything.
Why?
Who does it affect you?
If you stay at home all the time, it won't do anyone any good.
If you stay at home all the time, you'll eat up a lot of energy.
Five or six years from now...
You said you'd die at 29, but when that's over, you'll be 30.
What will you do?
30?
What can you do?
Think about it.
Think about it?
Suda's daughter's expression is different from usual.
As an adult, her father has given her a life assignment.
Suda's daughter's expression is different from usual.
Finally, the results of the Chinese test have been announced.
What will happen?
I'll open it.
What is it? Oh, I see.
What?
No way.
I thought I'd pass, but...
I failed.
The results are...
Passed.
The listening test met the passing criteria, but...
the writing was not enough and it was a regrettable result.
Even though...
I was given such an opportunity...
and yet...
I'm sorry and I don't know what to say.
Suda, who has worked harder than anyone else.
Looking back at these six months, what do you think now?
I've probably never lost in Chinese.
Maybe...
I couldn't switch it on in me.
All of the switches I've put in so far have been after I lost.
Maybe it was bad weather.
I don't think you're really like that, Suda.
Yes, I think so.
Didn't you ever feel like you weren't good enough?
That's...
I don't like being told I'm not good enough.
If there's someone else who can do it, I'm sure I can do it too.
I didn't want to think like that, so I couldn't say it out loud, and I tried not to feel it, but I thought it was difficult.
I thought it would be more painful and sleepy.
Even if I say it, I can't believe it.
I can only say it out loud and show only my strengths.
Everyone around me and my fans think it's me.
I've been trying to say it as much as I can, but if I say it out loud, people will say it's not like me.
I don't know what it's like.
I can't keep up with my ideal image that I've created.
That's my failure.
It's just a failure.
For the first time, her heart opened up.
She could see her true self, which she could only see because she challenged herself.
In this way, Suda's challenge closed the curtain.
She showed us a lot of her true self in six months of close coverage.
She was trying to change little by little from the idol image she had created.
So on the last day of coverage, I asked her three questions.
I've just started being an idol as a person, so I'm still a beginner.
I think it's too early to graduate.
I thought everyone would help me even if I showed my weaknesses.
Then it's okay, I thought.
I had a little image of being 31 years old.
I don't know why, but I feel like I exist.
I can't say it out loud.
I want to date someone.
She never said it out loud as an idol.
But as a girl, she said it out loud.
Her family and friends supported her even when she stumbled.
Together with her fans...
Akari Suda's 2016 begins.